Confessions of a Mom

OK so I have been having odd dreams. I wont get into the details of them here but I wake up feeling very anxious and out of order. You know that feeling you get when you cant find your keys and you need to leave right away and you pace and your heart is racing and you're frustrated? I wake up feeling a bit like that... It is certainly not comforting.
I had pondered over and over what in the world could this mean? Then I recognized it as an attack... claimed Victory.. and still wanted to figure it out.
Shawns sister, Yvette, has Ps91 tattooed on her wrist and it is very special to her for many reasons. (she will have to tell you herself) She reminded me to read Ps 91 at specific times and as a family. I immediately read it and felt comforted but had no idea why.
We have been studying Matthew with our church congregation and happen to be in chapter 4... the Duel in the Desert between Jesus and satan. You need to read this chapter to fully understand... but... satan tempts Jesus after He has been fasting for 40 days and nights and instructs him to turn rocks into food. Jesus answers Him with scripture from Deuteronomy as 'man does not live on bread alone but the Word of God' (my paraphrases here) THEN satan goes on to taunt Jesus with the Word... and he uses Psalm 91. I was awestruck! Thats it! That very thing was happening to me in my dreams and in my life. Satan was mocking me with scripture but not only that he was testing my very trust in God. Is God really sending you? What if you dont make it? What if something happens to your kids or you all get lice? What if... What if... What if! I almost fell for it and without the love of family and community I may not have the peace now of knowing he that knows the Word better than me is out to destroy and yes... I claim VICTORY! So what if satan... I know how the story ends!